To face another new beginning for me makes me sick. My nerves are breaking out and I can feel the fear surfacing. Like yesterday, I feel all this weird emotions. The excitement is there, but the fear of rejection or acceptance makes me wonder a hundred thousand times. I know the positivity may be there, but you know, as purely human I become infected with all this kind of feelings.
Tomorrow will be a different tomorrow. I can feel it. I just can't seem to realize how fast the pacing of events for me. I don't really know if this is for me, but if I risk to take this opportunity, I will risk it with such caution and safety first. I love myself. I know I wouldn't do any harm to myself. and I love my life. I had fought hard to be able to still walk on the earth's crust for a couple of years more. Still not perfect, Still jobless, but my heart beats differently now. My outlook becomes more wide. I accepted to whatever the Lord God will give me for a future. I have an enormous patience and will to live on despite of everything.
I'll keep posted for whatever tomorrow will bring.
- everyday life of a person surviving to lofe after Cancer.
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