Happy 3rd Birthday

Remember, remember the 8th of December..

Who could possibly forget the very day I had woke up to greet my whole new world. To a new life. A chance to prove my worth.

Three years seemed like just a month ago. Three years of being alive and fighting for my survival. It is so surreal to think that I am still breathing and tasting the delicacies of life despite the difficulties. I am happy but still in worry and in question. What will happen next after this?

It still pains me to think of what will tomorrow bring. I worry so much about myself and especially my family. I am afraid and there is no doubt about it, eventhough I don't act or vocal about my feelings, I still felt this way eversince this whole thing started. Everyday is a process for me. Three years is so short to accept things. I know I don't have much time to spend my life being doomed with this situation and feelings, but I think i will give myself this time to still be halfway through acceptance. It is not easy and the people who would understand me is the people who are experiencing this kind of situation.

Today, I heard mass together with my family. It is my way of saying Thank You for what The Lord God has given me. My faith, Trust and a great Belief in Him is the topmost way of me seeing the light throughout the darkness that over shadowed me in these past few years. He saved me a lot of times. He is still saving me everytime.

Later tonight we had a wonderful dinner together with my whole family. We made it a tradition to celebrate, like my real birthday, every year. Today I turned 3 years old. For me it is a big achievement to reach this age. I am Thankful, Happy and very Grateful.

I don't know exactly what will tomorrow bring as I said, but I still have high hopes for the future. I know there is something more beautiful to come my way. It is just a matter of believeing.

A Happy 3rd Birthday to me...


- everyday life of a Cancer Survivor.