Day 1115

A day after my three day christmas vacation at my Grandma's place. It was our annual tradition to spend Christmas with our beloved grandmother on my mother's side of the family. We had a sort of small reunion for immediate relatives. It was stressful but we all had fun.

Every Christmas serves a great importance to me. Maybe not just because I view life now differently, but because I want to have something to remember it by and to give thanks that I had lived to see yet another Christmas. I am contented and happy.

Today I feel like resting here at home, just a little bit tired from our road trip yesterday and sitting here just thinking about what's going to happen next year. Though I am still in question and afraid, I am ready for whatever comes. I don't want to be surprised anymore. I come prepared.

Time flies so fast. It is my fourth Christmas already after diagnosis and I only think of it as if it only happened a year ago. I am just Grateful for everything. I know that life is changing constantly and I am trying to convince myself to go along with the change. life is useless and meaningless without this challenges that arises. We just all hope that our Lord will give us enough strength to surpass each day and live life as if it's our last.

A New Year's greeting to every survivor out there!

-everyday life of a cancer survivor.