The fears

My fears with everything about life grew even stronger each day. No matter how hard I try to convince or let myself at ease that everything will be okay, yet a certain fear swepts me away into this forgiving world I am in.

To fear is like telling the world that "I am human". Our emotions are a vital tool in order to know the in and outs of the human world. We are given with such emotion because our creator knows our very own capacity to face the challenges that life will give us. The battles and obstacles are only here to spice up our very existence. What is life without any problems? It is one of those boring lectures from one of your boring teachers. They is no fun and sorrow in it. Nothing to get yourself worried, be happy or feel pain.

Having Cancer heightened my fears to a different notch. My own reality had me turning myself upside down. It is sad to know that the word "Forever" never exist anymore. That what I have is only Now, today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the next day so on and so forth, but there is no such thing as forever. Everyday I have to accept that fact like accepting the fact that I had Cancer. That no matter what I do or say nothing could erase that from my past. I had to deal with it weather I like it or not.

Recurrence is what we fear the most. We Cancer Patients and survivors had to deal with this fear after a great battle of treatment. It is like anticipating "death", will come knocking at our doorstep seeking what it wants most, to take lives. We thought of our disease as a time bomb. That any minute the source button will be pressed on and everything will begin again just as the first time. That is what we are afraid of. That triggers our fear. and it stresses us. A stress can release any bad malfunction in our body that can alter our well being. Stress is a topmost reasons for having Cancer and it is not healthy. Our Fear accompanies a stress.

But, there are many ways also to counter this situations. And we Cancer Survivors knows this very well. We just need to use some of our resources and open our mind to the harsh reality. We had Cancer. We fought a dangerous battle. We risk our lives in order to survive. And we carry it all until the day we die and be judged.

For as long we are alive and breathing, We are given a chance to live a life according to our own choices. We have a choice. and for me, I choose to be Happy no matter what happens.

" We were born, We exist, in order to see, hear, smell, taste, touch and feel the wonders our Creator made. We only got a chance to lived once. We need to use that borrowed time well...."


- everyday life of a Cancer Survivor...